The Beginning My owner has told me to document our story so far. I shall start at the beginning. One day I was surfing collarspace and viewed the profile of a female dominant (my future owner). She viewed mine as well so I wrote her an opening message: Thanks for viewing my Profile Darci, If you would like to talk please let me know Devoted, Rex She repiled: Arent you adorable My puppy is playful and agile she does however have a bad habit of eating the crotch of my panties if I forget them to put them in the laundry hamper Do you like to lick a lot? I felt hopeful because it meant that she was willing to accept me as the dog-like person that I was. I should mention that my profile stated quite clearly that I see myself as a pet. Specifically a puppy. The conversation continued as follows. Indeed Darci, I do like to sniff and lick my owners crotch as well Its the most intimate a dog and owner can be Devoted, Rex She replied: I of course have a real puppy her...
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It's a New Year 2020
Happy New Year!! 🎇Phoenix Rising 2020🎇 In spite of the awful past week I have had, this New Years motto was the Phoenix. I'll include some information about the Phoenix in this blog as well, and perhaps an image. In any event, My rex is 5,802 miles away from Me today. He has spent the past week with his parents in a small town a few hours from Berlin. He informed Me that his ex girlfriend would be driving him back to Berlin to their shared apartment. I should note that generally I am VERY possessive. The fact that he is living with his ex AND sleeping in the same bed eats away at me on many levels. Especially when I am told that he can't message Me or video chat with Me because she is present. Or when we are messaging an he tells that she is in the bed masturbating!! That boils My blood to no end. However, I am not there and I have to take into account a few things. First, I believe there is a cultural difference at play here. One that is very different than what I...
My pup
I have to say, I have never owned a dog slave before. In the past I was reluctant to take on anyone that wanted to be owned as a pet. I thought "this is not reality, role play is silly!" That was before I owned a real dog. Once I became a pet owner I realizes the value of a dog. They are loyal like no other, they follow you where ever you go, they communicate with their eyes(which is amazing really), they have great instinct, are protective and wow.... Do they lick a lot!!! 😂 The same goes for My dog slave in Berlin. He may be thousands of miles away but, on my worst days, he can make me feel like he is in the room with me. Which is more than I can say for 95% of the kinksters here in the STATES. When he is in my presence, I am not annoyed that I am woken up by his nudges as he asks if he can lick me. I never thought I would ever see the day that I found a slave to do that. Let alone a slave that did it without my telling him to. Ironically, he doesn't cons...
Being Chained up - logistics
In my previous post I wrote about the fail-safe device of our relationship. Describing the most extreme version without giving much regard to the technical difficulties which would have to be overcome. The first one would be private space, having a person chained up in the bedroom is a questionable lifestyle choice which family members, neighbors, or even law enforcement may disagree with. Therefore it would require an arrangement in which no one is likely to notice. (apart from the participants themselves who, of course, would.) Another issue would be of sanitary nature, in short cleaning or using the toilet. A chain long enough to allow use of those facilities could be considered too long, allowing for silly attempts to escape. One easy solution for that is to be chained up in the bathroom. That way toilet facilities are accessible. Without having a horribly long chain. Of course that'd mean transport to the bedroom would have to be possible if service and sleep there is ...
Contingency plan - chained up
Let's start at the end of the story. This is about the last resort. The final call. The Endgame. There is a chain anchored to the wall next to the bed, and an open padlock, the padlock's keyhole is soldered shut. The free end of the chain will be slug around my neck and the padlock will secure that chain-collar. This is what will happen when there is no trust anymore. No chance of rehabilitation. The point where mistrust and fear of the other leaving or cheating makes continuing a relationship impossible. Taking away the ability for the other to do any of these things does solve the trust issues nicely. It does not matter whether love is requited or not. In fact even a total lack of affection can be compensated for. Non-affectionate behavior will be punished with increasing severity, until it has been corrected to resemble real affection. Many relationships are really just convincing lies. There's no issue in forcing the desired content into those lie...
An awkward music video idea Some time ago my owner send me a video of herself masturbating. Which I greatly appreciate. While watching it yesterday I had a youtube tab open which played music. The melody fit the movements of her hand ... so I tried to sync the music such that it'd fit perfectly. I was reculant to tell my owner because she might think it's a degradation that her intimate moments would be diluted by music ... However when I told her she said I should post about it, which I hereby did. We also talked about contingency plans should I think about leaving her ... But that will be in another blogpost.
The first post - Story titled "for the first time"
The following story is devoted to and inspired by my owner Darcy. For the first time, I hear a tremble in your voice. "I do not want to hurt you as much as I am going to." For the first time, I see a glint of sorrow in your eyes. "Please understand that this is for your own good, this is needed for us!" You secure the gag, and the handcuffs. For the first time I see your features harden, steeling your self for what is about to come. "I do not want you to see me like this, keep your eyes closed." For the first time you cover my eyes. "Now it begins." For the first time you sound detached and icy. "hmmmmhmmmm." For the first time I want to escape. "When I am done ... you will truly be mine. For the first time."